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so what's the story now. have gazillion of story to tell. let's start of with my freelance job assisting the director.. currently doing a reality show and just finished shooting the 5th location in Kuching today. what an overwhelming crowd that showed up today. got few drama that managed to record. hey it's a reality show, it supposed to be drama. our routine is simple, we all set up from 7am in the morning, have a few interview, looking for the potential kids who can played the next stage and so on on.

i by now should have episode 01 script ready for the editors and also my bos to see it for approval. the thing is, i damn freaking lazy to start writing the script. maybe i just need to get to understand on how this show supposed to be shoot since there's only guideline and most of the time everything was coming in prompt to. i still remember things that happened in all location. maybe i should go back to APV and view the rushes back again.

now im actually sleepy. not enough sleep cause a day before the shoot, i and the director and also producer where at the hotel bar. they were drinking session and also pool session. so i had slept quite late and woke up early morning for shoot and didint get well slept during the flight to kl.

so what else. maybe i should sleep for a while. since my flight is at 7 am. just another 5 hours to go. but im not that sleepy. is just that im restless. and i think i can start writing piece by piece of the script. and put all together like a jigsaw puzzle. until then, to the next update. good nite

life is short, so why stress? be happy =)

restless..

just got back from kota kinabalu.. woah.. tiring man. from KK i straight away work, then later go and watch football. Kota kinabalu completed my map of the city i had visited in Malaysia. i have a lot of story to tell. but maybe tomorrow night. now, im will take a rest and waiting for my fren pick me up and go watch futbol. 

before i forget, this is what i got from facebook. which is almost 99.9% true.

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You love deeply... you may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.

You love actions... with the hero-like taste! You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

until then, please smile and be happy with whatever happened in life. and yeah, even though im damn tired, but i just want to put  a smile with what ever had happened

color my eyes

post ini tak ade related dengan contact lense color walaupun tajuk itu seperti tempting untuk menukar warna color mata kan..huhuhu..but im listening to tiesto song remix In search of sunrise 5. one of the song entitled Color My Eyes. cuba tukar lagu untuk skip from bahan lawak cam neraka itu. tp still aku terjebak jugak bukak td you tube untuk lihat another clips by this guy named hitmanbreakeroftheye, aku cam leh gelak guling2. suara tak yah cakap laa sengau tahap neraka kan. sampai aku pon tk paham ape die nyanyi pon. boleh dikatakan abis jahanam semua lagu..

tp tetiba lepas tgk expresi muka yang confident buat aku wonder jugak. dia sangat2 confident untuk nyanyi and then letak dalam youtube untuk jadi star kat you tube, aku wonder dalam hidup aku ni: am i that brave, that confident, that strong to actually face all the criticising, cursing and also humiliation. i like this one quote from BurgerHouseBoys who made the lip sync video clip of taylor swift famous song "love story". really meaningful (for me lah)

"LIFE IS SHORT, LIFE IS MEAN, LIFE IS FULL OF PROBLEMS, LETS MAKES FOOLS OUT OF OURSELVES WHILE WE CAN! HAKHAKHAK! "

cause in our real life, it's like that. why not i'm making a fool of myself and laughing about it. at the same time, i learn from that. so this guy who actually have the guts to become famous in youtube by posting all the silly video clip of himself. maybe he not feeling the same of what i had thinking, but at least this is what i had been thinking for now.

and this thing is related in terms of how dare i'm to take risk on my own life by grabbing the opportunity that is already in front of my eyes. sounds like i'm dealing with life and death by risking life. actually it is. so i still need to do more on thinking and intuitions. oh well. let time decide (like always) wasting time.

to be continue..

hari gelak ketawa

duh..sepanjang hari ni, keje aku hanyalah gelak gelak gelak dan gelak lagi..ini semua gara-gara Lalat yang sangat baik hati mengpost satu link lagu Taylor Swift kat mukabuku.aku dah layan seblom pegik ofc smlm..and then aku bg colleague aku tgk pagi tadi subuh2 ayam selepas kami berjuang bekerja sampai kol 7 pg tadi...dah tergolek2 tgk video klip itu. pastu tadi jek baru aku preview kat budak2 ofc yang lain..mmg terbahak bahak semua orang. adui la.. cramp rasa perut ini. aku sampai ting tong gelak...anyway..aku nk g jln2 dalam opis..hahahah boring cam raham dok opis.. later updates

Aku Sayang Kucing Aku

hahaha, post ni takder kene mengena ngn kucing di rumah. it's just that i had read a funny article in news paper few days ago. i cant believe that one of my friends (not that close) can really make a confession as in like he is the "Malaysia Lindsay Lohan". i dont want to tell bad stories, but from what i read, that's really like looking for attention. anyway enuff saying about this fella.

my recent conversation with my other friend (which is still undergoing), we come up with few more album title

1) Aku gigil.. Engkau

2) Gigil ku Gigil

3) Aku gigil sebab demam

4) Kenapa aku gigil...

all this album title are related with my case that i was admitted to the hospital during the fasting month. ahaha.. fell free to add on the creative title..who knows, soon i might coming out with my own album also. nite.

post-mortem

woah..what's the newest update?

a lot of things happened by the way. i don't from where to start with. first of all im wishing all muslim in this world "Selamat hari Raya" or Eid Mubarak. anyway Raya already pass and i'm guessing that th whole holy month of Syawal, at least we gain 1 KG. i did. maybe 5-6 kg. hahahaha.. maybe i should start fasting. fasting is actually the time that i challenge myself to control all my emotions, my feelings, my EATING especially. cause when u hungry, your tend to loose control on your temper. and you feel tired, u feel like hell (actually if you are a heavy smoker then you feel the tension of it).

my cut off time to update the blog is 1.30 am. i need to work ma. LOL. and some more i need to wake up early to do some clean up for the cats since the tenant for my house wont be able to come tonight. pfftt.. maybe i can wake up early. just wish i will not overslept. well i can say my weekend always full with things with friends, either hanging out with them or attending open house. well earlier of this month my weekend i spend at my hometown. after that meeting up with old friend then this weekend with open house. i do have time for cleaning up my rooms after work, but i damn lazy. well always with lame reasons. tired..tired..tired...ok enuff with whinning...

actually now i don't have any excuses anymore not to update my bloig, since i have this "OK when it's in a good mood and become shitty during PMS" P1 W1MAX broadband. gosh how on earth this people can promote W1MAX without having a good service to customers. now i can said that for the pass 4 days out of 9 days of W1MAX at home, its in good mood. im not sure about tmorrow or day after tomorrow. we just wait n see. anyway my cut off time already. good nite

life is about shit..

there's something wrong

but i don't actually want to admit it. keji kan. suke living in denial. tp facts is aku cuba mendenieykan perasaan tk comfortable aku, rasa malas yang amat..rasa yang suka bagi alasan-alasan yang putar alam kalau diri ini terlibat dalam masalah..bagi alasan kalau keje tak siap..bagi alasan untuk tidak mahu visit family di ampang.

ok aku rase aku sangat tanak g ampang. banyak sebab. sebab untuk mengelak. dah tahu ape soalan soalan cepu emas dan cepu cemas yang boleh aku balik umah lepas visit dalam keadaan saiko, down, putus harapan tanak hidup dan sebagainya.. like always.. perasaan itu lah yang selalui menghantui aku a few years back. bile aku stop jenguk or memberi kan berita mengenai diri aku kepada family sane, ketika itu juga aku cam tkder perasaan saiko semua.

if i'm not mistaken, last year i did went and visit them. yang ada kazen dan nenek sedara(also known as makcik ku). hal2 tidak konfident dengan keupayaan bapak aku boleh membawa orang pegi tour (as in memperkecilkan bapak aku) depan aku. agak cam meluat jugak. at the same time bile citer aku keje kt company kawannya ibu tiri aku, ada saje "nasihat" negatif kuar dari mulut dierang. naik fedap dengar..bleh muntah hijo jugak dengar. tp aku buat bodoh..tp makan dalam jugak kot..

aku lak jenis makan dalam, marah pon dalam diri je..nangis pon dalam diri je.. sedih semua tk express.. konon aku macho..berlagak..egois..semua lah tu... termasuk aksi jadik cool..sudah 615pm..nk kene chau, kene g ampang..huhuhu..g kejap..later balik collect laptop, then singgah mc D buat keje yang tertangguh..esok buat spring cleaning. ..whatever lah..tanak pk dalam2..penat..